2009 Goals

I haven't been grinding the last two weeks and will hit the tables hard next year. I need to build a bankroll or what Angelo calls the accumulation of the nails. My talent, ambitions, and heart are my hammer, but you have to have nails to pound.

- Build a big bankroll
- Workout or some physical activity 4x a week
- Achieve supernova
- Work on plo and hu game
- Move up levels

I've learned from last year to not have specific goals because too much can happen and it's impossible to know what. My monetary goal is to cash out 50k, that isn't asking for too much, or is it?

Grinding

I am just going to remind myself to keep grinding because good things will happen if I do. I'm really frustrated by my lack of consistency in playing my best game. I'll be able to kill a session in the morning, and then give it all back at night and keep swinging like that. I really need to do a better job with focusing. I think I'm going to try to play 2 or 3 sessions in a day comprised of 2 or 3 hours each session. I think working out is amazing for the game, and will continue to do so. I've really been slacking on my hu and plo game so perhaps I'll pick those up this winter break. I'm happy with 80 percent of my play this month. It's the other 20 percent that frustrates me to no end. I just finished watching the series finale of Dexter and Californication and both shows seemed to emphasize at the end of the day, life is good. Amen to that, life is good as I know it.

In football, grinding is being able to run the ball for only a few yards and a few vital inches at a time,
In baseball it's working the pitch-count,
In gambling, it's getting in all the money in a vast majority of the time with only a slight edge,
In life, it might not be a whole lot of fun, but eventually grinding will lead to shots and good things happening.

More Boxer than Fighter

The fight was awesome and I really hope I'll be able to obtain tickets to a fight in Vegas one day. I was thinking of my own poker career, and a friend had remarked to me I'm becoming more of a boxer than fighter now. I really think those were deep words now that I reflect back on the year. I'll probably post more on 2008 before the end of it. I really think I'm becoming more of the player I want to become every day and I do think I'm seeing more and more Kinish in me than before. I guess I'm getting old for a lack of a better phrase. I guess I would prefer maturing to becoming older. I am definitely much more of a boxer than a fighter now, more of a pitcher than a thrower, and more of a grinder than gambler.

Spaere Vivere

Fooled by Randomness was an excellent read. It was entertaining and connected stories from history to the present. The book ends with a fabulous piece of literature. "The only article Lady Fortuna has no control over is your behavior. Good luck." It reminds me that I might not possibly have that much control over my poker career, maybe the tables will be infested with sharks within a few years, or maybe I'm not who I think I am, or maybe UIEGA is the end of the world piece of legislation for "online gambling." The only thing I can control is how I personally react to all these things. At the end of the day, I know luck plays a part in everything, but I know my will to prepare to win will also play a role in will I achieve my dreams. Even after my will to prepare to win, my acceptance of what things are will ultimately determine if I "make it or not." If I don't make it, but I had the time of my life, then that's worth more than any amount won at the tables. When I step back and think about my life, I can see how lucky I am to be doing any of the things I do at this particular time at this particular place in space. Realizing what it is, I just grin and know I've already won.