I Don't Want to Bitch

but i fucking hate this fucking game so fucking much. I have not run this terrible in a while. blah blah blah what does it even mean to run bad? Even after reading internetpokers on cr's great post about stfu people about running bad, i'm going to run my mouth about how bad i ran today. I'm really trying to think about the post and how it's not running bad, but I am down right now and it's frustrating as hell. Internetpokers was so right, poker is a whore. I'm going to get a girlfriend by the end of the year just to see if it compares to the emotional exhaustion poker puts me through.

1) got set over setted twice
2) ran kkk into turned quads
3) misclicked raised 99 in sb to 12 dollars and bb shoves and I outlevel myself thinking he knows that and he has aa
4) get full stacks in on a turned nut str8 with opponent having a gutshot somehow and good river
5) countless binks by my opponents, bricks by me, and I just suck at this game lol
6) BBJ hit at 50nl in AP, but somehow I was 8 tabling 100nl tonight so gg 1.3k
I can stfu now and move on. I'm probably not down too much money-wise, a couple hundred probably. I'm really doing my best not to look at how much I'm up or down.

OK, no more bitching about running bad. On days like this, I'm so glad I only play 50nl, I'm going crazy right now. It probably wasn't that bad monetary-wise, o well guess I do what Kobe said: "Whine about it tonight. Lot of wine, lot of beer, couple shots. Maybe like 20 of em. Digest it, and get back to work tomorrow." My tilt issues haven't gone away. If I was in Vegas now, here I go networth on red. I am going to the gym tomorrow and have a feeling I'll set a new pr on the bench. Thank God I've at least learned not to tilt with my poker bankroll by seeking action in hu. I'm laughing hysterically right now, I think I'm broken.