Living for the Moment

I feel like I'm in such a slump, I just dropped a few more buyins and am feeling the blues. I think I need to stop being so results oriented. I constanly refresh my HEM to check my ev and how I'm doing. I've always known this hasn't been the right route, but never had the discipline to do anything about it. Starting from this moment on, I'm not going to check my bankroll or have HEM running while I'm playing. I'm just going to keep it basic and get the money in good. Who cares how I'm running or how much I'm winning or losing. I need to do this and won't even reveal hands unless I feel like I need to tweak something. I'll also only check my stats at the end of the month and see how I'm doing then. That's when I'll make all the proper adjustments and such in my game and bankroll. I need to forget all these swings, because even though I've adjusted well with my bankroll size padding the damage, I'ld be lying if I said I don't feel frustrated when "running bad" or in the midst of a downswing. So no more checking bankroll every moment or ev graphs and such, just live for the moment and get the money in good. I think it'll be better for my game, but I know it'll be better for my mental health and happiness.